Episode 1 - Exploring the Intricacies of Human Energy

Is like... So we have 50 52 percent in charge of our physical body, our 52 percent of just bead, and they're, like, you have to understand the other aspects of the hotter percent if you wanna use the 0 to a hundred percent scale. K? Oh, so if you have 52 percent just what your body needs to survive. Choose to thrive just to be physically generating your own energy essence of survival.

So they're getting pulled into the physical body, what it needs to live, survive half strength. Have all that stuff. K. So like, now you look outside that 52 percent. Now 52 percent.

Or sorry enough 52 percent. Now outside of that is the energy that's around you that's ema and Around you. It's like I get... Your circle your bubble. U.

And then now outside of that, you have another percentage that is now affecting your 52 percent. So this is kinda like outside your space outside your aura, your bubble. How are you able to define it? There's this space around it. I feel like I wanna look through a bunch of books to try and find this image that I'm seeing.

There is a... I don't why here 74, and 74 percent has a lot to do with the environmental, your atmosphere. Earth's atmosphere 74. So in between 70... 52 and 74 percent, like, whatever that percentage would be.

Sure. What's that 22? Yes. Okay. Got 74.

26 What's the other? What's the other? The other is for? And you pull to matter. Space, matter.

It's like nothingness, but everything. Some people would define this as caution business. It's like the space of nothingness, but everything. Like, the concept... The the start of matter.

In whatever then... I think ancient Egyptian Lore. It's c. The sea of, I think it's Re. Re came before Ra, Ra, the sun.

Rh is like the void. Okay. Well, and I hesitate to teach you this is where I'm gonna use it though. It was called the sea of chaos. Okay.

And... But we're we're so afraid of cash. It's not cast like we think of it today, though. It meant that it wasn't embodied into... It wasn't organized into matter yet.

It wasn't that it was chaotic and frightening. Like, people is definition today of chaos is basically more d dystopian and fear. This wasn't dystopian fear. It just wasn't organized yet into matter. Right.

It was intelligent. It was all sorts to stuff it just wasn't in... Form. Yeah. Which was interesting because you picked up on form, you're picked up on matter, I should say.

Yeah. So it's, like, it almost looks like... It it looks black to me, but yet when you push things together, it like, creates something. Yeah. It's like this.

Can we call it is void a word for right now? Yeah. First. Okay. And are you saying that space from, like, 74 percent of the atmosphere to if we were just call it the scale of a hundred to the hundred percent is the...

Yeah. Is that the space? Yeah. It's like really 52 percent. It's like, physical and mental, spiritual, everything in there.

So it's not just a physical thing. There's even emotions in there, and there's just our vibration that we as a sole in a physical body is M and A0K? Yep. 52. Then that from 52 to what 74 is, like, the environmental that we're on earth plane, wanna call it.

That matter, that energy, that space, that concepts, all that stuff. That also includes... That also includes, like, the environment around, so they're as above so below. So they're even going into Earth. So it's like, everything that is has a physical form and some d.

Really in some dimension in some dimension. Sure. Yep. And some dimension, everything has a form. Yeah.

So that's that 1. Wow. And then the other the other piece of it, so that's up to 74. So then you have 74 to 100 percent. Is, like, 26 percent.

Mh. Is that... The the void, if you wanna call that way. The nothingness. Mh.

It's where everything comes from the. Correct. And Does that even sound right? Mh. It does.

It's a really interesting so we gauge of 0 to a hundred because it in a linear fashion, which is how we trained to think and can and don't need to think in certain ways. Yeah. Than yearly and you're longer. People would say, you know, if I have a z to a hundred percent charge. Hundred...

Percent means I'm vibrant and alive and happy and full of purpose and 0 means I'm dead. And it's like, no. Actually, you hit 52 percent. You're vibrant. Yeah.

Yep. It's a really different gauge. There is a operational scale. A vibration scale. Okay.

There's a vibration scale that once they hit 42 percent, U. 42, like, there's a number of 42 or something like that. Somewhere. It says that's where the ser cancer is. There's...

I've seen that. I I would venture to say that, like, 52 percent is the minimum charge, we need to be in what I would call wholeness. Yes. Once you've hit 52 percent. You are on your way to greater and greater and greater levels of wholeness?

Should you choose to go that route? Yes. Do you below 52 percent? Your diseases. Dis ease.

Dis non harmony, un whatever it. Hope. D dystopian right. And sid the goal in a way. It...

It's like the set point. I don't know if it's the goal. Like the touch stone. The place that we can always come back to is 52 percent would be ideal. I anything outside of that is hey, bonus.

Way to go. Right. And Just just, like, keep it to simplify it somewhat for people. So we don't feel overwhelmed. And this 52 percent, this is where most people.

They feel like once they achieved that, they've achieved everything and This is literally just the beginning. It is. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Now you're gonna go up and down around whatever, the 52 percent. I I would say the fifth 52 percent actually really, to me, also has something to do with attachment and detachment. Okay? Lot of people would get to 52 percent, sam I'm done, They get attached Yeah. To it.

And what will happen is your 52 percent will go away somehow. Because we're not supposed to stop. It's on... There's a continuous change. There's a continuous fluctuation, and it's learning to be okay with the fluctuation.

It's learning to be okay with. Oh, I've now gone to, you know, from 52 percent, if I went just to scale it. I'm from 52 percent, and now today, I'm feeling more, like, 62. Yeah. In the next day, we get very attached to the 62, and then we wake up the next day, and we're back down to 52, And we can get kinda angry and mad.

Yep. Yep. And the point is to learn how to flow and move with these changes in what we would call the changes in vibration. And we're scaling it right now. We're giving you a percentage so that our mind, our conscious mind can wrap around and understand it a little bit.

And then I think eventually, we'll do some tools or Yeah. I'd call tools like, visualization or meditation or something where you go we go beyond understanding this in our mind to truly experiencing it. Like, you've said you've worked with clients, and they're like, but I don't get it and you're like, but do you feel better? How do you feel inside? Do you feel peaceful and the or, you know, they're like, I feel peaceful.

I feel calm. Alright, See. Now you get the 52 percent. Outside of your conscious mind. You're getting it in your body.

U. I think what we're saying here if I were to someone, it was like, this 50 percent becomes a really important piece for being human because it's like our vibration tuning fork. It's, like guiding us. Yep. 2 all the time, and yet we were trained to not pay attention or to deny or to block or all sorts of ways, yep, to to not engage as very, very powerful and simple, like, feedback system that we have every day.

It was designed as a safety mechanism and reality. It was a hindrance. He was to keep you... Hold on a second. It was designed as a safety.

Yes. But it became, like, a hindrance... A hindrance, but it's not supposed to be a hindrance. No. It's supposed to be as it's supposed to be a safety.

If that's what the initial thought process was is to... When you humans designed the the concepts of don't touch this this as hot, and then the repeated of it over and over. Repetitive helps teach So k. Repetitive helps teach. So you continuously read, you get better at reading, It's a repeating pattern.

K? The more you read, deeper level books, you expand your knowledge, you you become more consciously aware, it is training the brain to open up more channels, open up more doorways. You get to a point and human evolution as to where they want to stop you. And I get pulled to a lot of our our standard thinking in the world right now Is, like, you've reached this goal, Thank you for reaching this goal, you know? And you've reached the top of the ladder.

Now you have nowhere else to go. So people get stuck there because it's it feels comfortable to them. And it's something that they know. But in they're showing me in the past if I go centuries ago, there was no, like, limit So people keep going. And then you have other people that were not educating themselves.

I'm gonna use the word education, not understand things. They got comfortable because that was safe to them because of XYZ happened. So let's... Let's play a factor in back in caveman man. And people were they knew that, okay, I gotta get smarter than this animal or I'm gonna get killed.

So either you fight flank or freeze. So it comes down to just the basics of survival. Fight flight freeze. So people who are fighting who want to say, okay, I gotta get smarter than them. Let's think let's watch their tendencies.

So then you have people that are following them, and they're learning from them. They're educating them them. And you get to the point where now you become, like the alpha. Now you're in charge at these these animals, so the animals have to respect to you, your boundaries your education, people have taken that though, and they've turned it into power. So then now these other people down here who have run and hid, they're like, oh, yep up, Keep hiding.

I got you. I'm gonna help you out. And in essence that has completely shifted our whole world around. Interesting. So couple things there.

We we... As through humans, yep, and how we faults and Yep. Grew with things. Basically, we convoluted safety, comfort and attachment. Yes.

And what we would like to do is to help guide people to get clear on what being safe in your body means on what comfort or comfortable means and also what attachment means. Because I know a lot of people who will say, I love comfort. There's a place in a time for comfort. Absolutely. But I've heard a lot of people use comfort is more attachment, which means they don't wanna change, which means I meant.

I got to the top of a ladder, and I'm gonna stay here, but here's what... I learned about the way humans are made, if you will, which I think is funny. And simultaneously is a tad bit madden. We like to climb the mountain, and we will actually, I'm gonna say it, Bitumen and complain while we're climbing the mountain. This is so hard.

It's so that. It's this. Oh, my god. And I don't wanna do this, but actually we do. Yeah.

That's why we keep doing it, but part of the bitch and complaining is a release of some of the... Some of the built up, like, energy within a emotion feeling or whatever We need to... It's like a release valve. Yeah. Because it is kinda hard or in that Earth is a challenge.

I should say. Now that's so hard. It can be challenging. So climbing the mountain is challenging. We play and we do whatever, and then we get to the top of the mountain.

And we sit there, and we looked down for roughly 3 seconds before we go look up what's next? And everything that we just did collapse all the complaining. So we really weren't made to get to the top of the ladder and stop. We were may to climb the mountain. We were made to sit at the top of the mountain and comfort for for about 3 seconds before we proceed on in the next challenge.

And it is a little bit of a madden experience because what you just described, the tools that are needed to be okay with that to love and embrace and enjoy that process, have have really... Kinda disappeared in modern society. They're they're not they're not gone. They're just not as prevalent. It's, hey, give me your powers.

Stop. I'll take care of you, And then people go well, I'm not sure if I wanna do that or not. They're also not sure that they have what it takes to say get to the top of the ladder or the top of the mountain over and over again, and they do. I assure yep they do. Yep and that's the people that are, like, I get pulled back to in the past.

We have all these tools and resources like this person, figured out either through their own body's and intuition or paying attention to the surroundings, there they're they're being aware of their situations. Aware the physical body where that's surrounding. They're aware of the animals per s that are around. They're watching everything. And they get to the point where they could feel the vibrations all around.

K? So they're taking that experience and they have become now that animal is not gonna kill them. They have all the tools and resources. What the problem is is we as a society were never taught on how then to teach the next. I I think we actually were taught.

Yeah. We haven't been taught recently. Correct. And so it's kind of in a sense lost. Yep.

But it's... It's available. So here's here's an interesting, like, question my mind posed in... I'm pretty sure my early 20 when it was. If not, maybe perhaps my teens the first time I thought it though.

Is I just... These things would come to me. K? I'm not thinking them, Kim. I'm...

I don't have enough like, evolution at that point in my life to to be generating these things from my own evidence that I've gathered and collected. These things would just like, come into my mind. And 1 of them was, how did people? Way way way way way back in time? How did people discover?

That right next to the plant that can harm you is the plant that can heal you. Yeah. Like, this is a question that popped into my head. Somewhere between let's, I know it was like 17 to 22. I don't know exactly when, but roughly in that era.

I just was like, how does that happen? And the reason why I think that question could pop into my head is because there was an era of humanity that wasn't tune just like you just described. They were aware and they were in tune. It actually were not through this horrible fight flight flight or freeze era. They're were kinda If let's put it on a linear time frame.

They were before that. They were more in a circular life. Yep. They were born and died. In that linear sense, but they didn't walk it as a straight line.

They want it as a circle. We can have the circle and the line anything that we want now. The point is you really nailed it with the... In my opinion, you really nailed it with the... And then humans did this and created power.

Yes. They've they've taken that concept of the fight plate freeze. Yeah. And they utilized it against Themselves or and or others, and others. Yeah.

Some people only use it against themselves and don't use it against others. Correct. And today, in today's world's I'm a very good person because I don't use it against others. But she beat the shit audio herself. Sam U.

Others don't beat the shit out of themselves so much, but they really do use it against others. And I personally believe that that the era of the battling of power like that. To me, I'm over it. It's uni. It's probably raging worse than it ever has quite honestly.

And yet when I see it, I quite... I am not interested in it. At all Kim. I'm not in denial. I'm just not interested.

Because I think there's something far more engaging and interesting for us at to put our awareness or time, our attention to put our power. Because when you hit your 52 percent. Mh. That is when you know your body well enough. You know your your physical, mental body, you are good with who you are, very accepting of it.

And you understand that there is fight flame freeze. You understand there is emotions. You understand those in your able to listen to them and give them their... I don't wanna color word power when you're able able to give it validity and just a sense of peace. To acknowledgement.

There is a right word. I go through words. You give that acknowledgment. That is when now, you start going into that above those layers. And you go into your environment.

And you go to above above and beyond your environment, that is the piece where humanity, has been like, okay. We've done the 52 percent. We understand that. We actually came into the world with that 52 percent knowledge. We were already there.

K? And we let the environment around us start taking away at that power. We started giving it away to the environment because we weren't quite for sure. And the environment Ara is very strong. And it could be very manipulating, it can be very challenging for some people.

That is where we start giving away 52 percent to the environment around. That environment doesn't come back and give us that back, typically unless you know how to. Go into that environment and utilize it for yourself to regain your poem back. So people now have to work extra harder to build himself back up. This is where we get caught up and all the stuff all around.

What is that person doing? What are what are they doing? Just some distraction yet and the movies and all this other stuff have is yeah. Can be exceedingly challenging, especially in our modern world. No.

Before we go on though I just... I do wanna say Like, we're gonna revisit a few of these concepts and get and simplify it and clarify it Like, you know, Said because there's times where it's even for us where we're like, oh, my god. Wow. Yeah. That's...

Because people working harder to regain. So I would say that I came to a point in my own evolution with this 52 percent, where I was born with it knew it. Yes. Started losing it roughly around the age of 6 and really went bankrupt with it. I don't know how many years ago with that term.

I did. Yeah. I was, like, bankrupt when... When I was bankrupt with it, I was really physically ill, I was... It everything was so...

Hard. Yeah. And I... What made everything so hard even harder is that I could remember that it didn't used to be so hard in my own life Yeah. So I had a...

You know, I had a comparison. And I did it. It was, like bankrupt great word. And then the thing is though, there's just... It's really is as simple as this moment where you go.

You know what? There's 52 percent in meat. It's it's weird, Kim, because it's like we can give it away. But we can also very quickly get it back. We can.

Yes. Because it's like it's... It was always ours. You have to ask. You have to ask.

Is right. That is like a major major 1 you have to ask. You have to ask. And most people think of when you ask that means I'm asking angels. I'm asking spear.

I'm asking God. But what you're really doing is asking yourself to take back your power. What is it that I need to take back my power, whatever it is. You're you're giving yourself permission to ask. Yes.

And here's... So, yes, most people think they have to ask, externally. And there isn't asking externally, but there is an internal asking that we have tended to skip over. And that really brings us to what I would calls, like, on earth, we have that it like, the duality is always here with us, and I use the word always because it is we're we're in the dimension here on Earth. That's a dual dimension.

So interesting to me, people see that duality is splitting people apart. It's actually not a split. Oh, it's not separate It's like, we talked about 1 other time we could dig into this another time too is it's the 2 sides of the brain. Yes, There's 2 sides of a brain, but we actually have 1 brain. That's where I'm going with this.

2 sides of asking. We haven't been so ingrained that we ask externally. Mh. We've forgotten about the other side of our brain, which is to ask internally for the return of our own power. Mh.

Would you say that that may actually be like step number 1 towards like, physical? Yes. And They get pulled to a lot of concepts, of, say a. We're gonna pick on them. K?

And it literally comes down. Air quote, pick on them. Yes. K? Yep.

You know, picking out Get what you say. That it is... It comes down to acknowledgment. Kinda like, you have to acknowledge you have a a problem, so they're saying there's levels that they have with theirs to get through their program. K?

And they're, like, they're not wrong. They're not wrong. And then I get pulled to the grieving process, and I don't I don't remember which psychologists are philosophy. Said this, but there's different stages greeting that we go through. Whenever you go through some sort of loss, you go through the grieving stages.

And they can kind of bounce back and forth, the same thing with a lot of these programs that are designed. This is the same thing. Same concept that the the physical body forth or being in a physical body. Let's just put it that way. Being in a physical body.

You need some sort of kind of structure to help you go through it. So in this concept of when you're trying to find your 52 percent. Absolutely. You need to ask first. You need for 1.

Ask yourself? Do you... Do give yourself permission? Do you will allow yourself? So they're, like, asking questions is, they show me, like, a first key.

And I see 3 boxes. 3 old... Keys. Skeleton each. It's ways to unlock who you are.

Yep. If you don't ask, you're never gonna know. Right. Incredibly powerful to ask questions. Now.

Let me just throw a few things out there that I believe as humans we'd rather do than ask questions, which is really funny because it's way easier to ask a question. Yeah. And yet, we would rather go to a... I would call the extremes of duality. If I can have perfect vibrant health right now, I don't want it.

We wouldn't say that, but that is actually what we're saying when we won't ask the questions. Because when we ask the questions, we're also consenting. To journey through the answers. Mh. And the journey can be a little what would be the word?

It's I... It's just a a journey is a journey. It's it's not perfect. It that way. And there is something in our minds that has been...

Here's what's coming community you. There's something in our minds that has been trained if you will to split duality. K? It's either good or bad. Yep.

K. Since my health is not good right now, therefore, it must be bad, and you're asking me to ask questions which means I have... Which means I have to admit my health as bad, and I wanna do anything but do that. So I'm just not gonna ask questions, whatever. That's giving away our power.

And Yep. I've looked at it where I said, kinda, like, look at duality as a coin. You have 2 sides of a coin, but both sides are still 1. Yep. So while your health may not be good right now or your health may be bad right now.

I'll say it that way. It it can also simultaneously still be good just by asking some questions that journey can actually be a beautiful thing. It can be actually be very intriguing. It doesn't have to be this horrible terrible journey, which the split mind has actually convinced us that if my health is bad, it's a hundred percent bad, very or 0 percent good. And so it's gonna be a horrible journey getting back.

It's, like, you know, it's it's not split like that. It's not... I know this simply because I've been there kim felt... I've experienced it in my mind. Where my mind was like, it's all bad.

It's all bad. It's all that and I created a pretty bad physical experience, which is alright because I learned from it, but I now know where. I'm like, you don't give it the power. Bad over over time. Yeah.

Over time, you've learned to you didn't know to ask the questions. Especially when you're 6 years old. Right. You don't have somebody guiding you and getting you those tools or those resources because they probably don't know them themselves. Right.

So here you are. 6 years old. Like, you're not quite for sure what questions do you even ask. So now you're... Now you get to sit with it.

And now I get to have somebody tell you who is your authority. So you have someone who's your authority? Yep. Your authority. Yeah.

Somebody who has power because you're looking to find your power. So you go to the people in your environment. And the ones that you consider your power. So typically our parents, and we look for that support. And if you don't get the answers or the questions are whatever it is.

You don't get it back where you feel a sense of safety security or you don't feel better, you automatically start right away, recognizing your body recognizes. Okay. That was power and power did not serve me well. K? Not that it was right nor wrong.

It just, like, your body perceived it as there was a lack of power. So then anytime you are going to find your power, you right away think of lack of... Not right away, But over time you grown into this habit. And because it's kinda like a self defeating habit. Yep.

And I... What comes to me about that is we had talked about earlier today, how cultures ancient or older cultures? I don't even know where they all are, but anyway, at timeline, I mean, whether they were ancient. I don't think all of them were ancient is where what I'm saying. They had more of an integrated teaching of power of this 52 percent of being empowered in our bodies.

Yeah. So when you're were just hanging about parents, now, we have parents who I think went in some ways, the opposite of what you just explained, which was... You just described a, not get an interaction with power, where now they have parents who have given 6 year olds all of the power. Yeah. K Neither 1 of those.

Those are the ex... That's the split dual duality extreme. We're not supposed to have either 1 of those, we're actually supposed to have more of an integrated. Yes. K.

And and that's, I think what we need to learn the new skills. That's what I believe that we can... Have loads of fun, making sense of and explaining and giving tips and tools and, you know, helpful resources, all those kind of stuff of building a skill set, if you will. Shit. Yep.

Yeah. So the word integration and that was, like, key. There's so many things that we have tried to run away from. Yeah. Because of the good or bad the duality, all that.

Like, we tried to run away. And away. So it's kinda like, even in the medical There's Eastern Western, and god forbid you go 1 way or the other. It's literally know it's integration of the hole. Mh.

You have to be. You actually Absolutely need the integration of the whole. You also absolutely need a contrary opinion that you may not agree with. Yep. Because that contrary opinion say can help you know.

And helps you ask questions. And helps you ask questions, helps to get clear. Yep. Mh. So recently there's talking with someone about...

And it it it's an organizational thing. Anyways, is what we were talking about. And this organization was filled with people who are like mine. Now we all enjoy being around people if you wanna scale it and enjoy or dislike like or dislike, Again, that's that real extreme separated thinking. K?

But we do it all the time. We all tend to enjoy being around people who are like minded did. But when we start to create a life of like minded, life becomes actually very imbalance. Yes. And I said if you...

In an organization, as it it was a someone who had a security mindset was in a health and wellness place, and she could see the the the really big holes in their security, and they needed better. Security. And this isn't from fear or anything. They just needed better security. They didn't have anyone around with a security mindset or advising them clearly because the holes were so big that me, I'm not even someone who looks at that stuff and starts to see that.

I... She was describing to me. I was like, almost hope going, oh my god. Are you... Like, I was almost...

Are you kidding me? Like, the opportunities to take advantage of, the, like, gaps and security, if I can see them, I'm not kidding you. They're bad because I don't sit in like study that stuff. Yeah. And it it really came down to this.

Like, they needed to have a group of people advising on on the culture of this center that came from different of backgrounds, different lines of thing, actually not like mindfulness. If so. Yeah. And out of that, if they can build an integrated consensus, they will build an amazing thing. And for some reason, as humans, we've gotten to this point of, I only wanna be around people that agree with me.

Yep. But that's strangely super dis empowering. If you feel any sense of being empowered by being around like minded people, it's a false sense of being howard. Absolutely. We were made to have this level, a degree of being inter graded.

With what we say like and don't like, which is not the same if you would in just... I'm gonna go here. It's not the same. As saying, if you will, like, good and evil. I'm saying like and dislike.

I'm not saying, engage, like, attitudes and people, because there are people with those in the world. So that... I'm not saying, hey. Right. K?

You say still have to be aware and engaged of who you will sit and ask questions with and ask questions Yep. Because not everyone is a good person. There are some dia thinkers in this world. Yep. And quite honestly, there some of those thinkers.

I don't wanna have conversations with. But there's some people that I just kinda don't like that I really do need to learn from them. Absolutely but it's a skill to learn to do that kim. To ask these... I guess that's all...

I'm kind of going off on this thing of, like, it it sounds very simple to ask questions. But it can also get tricky if we're only asking the questions that we like, and we're only asking questions, you know, you gotta ask, like, k when I wasn't look when I graduated into 4 day headaches, I have to ask a very uncomfortable question. Mh. How did I get having 4 day headaches. And I will tell you the truth.

I didn't wanna ask that question for a long time. After But once I asked that question and started getting those answers, That I came out of those headaches way faster. Yep. Than the very slow slide into them. And it was a tell year slide into them, and it was less than a year out by asking questions.

So while it might be uncomfortable or even enjoyable to ask some of these questions, is so worth it because it gets you maybe out of something you don't want to be in and into something you do want, it's just... It's true truly powerful. It really is. Hundred percent. Yeah.

Really hundred percent. 1... Now we hit the 100 percent. Yes. Sweet got other stuff to add or summarize or They're plotting you.

Applaud me. Yes. I don't hope. Okay. Well, thank you.

There go chill. Take. Yeah. Well, Yeah I I'm like, that was that was even actually so big where it's like, wow, how do you summarize that. I don't even know that I can necessarily summarize it as much as I can say, there will be more more more around this.

Yeah. More clarity, more more support more tools, You know, we're... I I guess 1 thing I can definitely summarize is that we talked about safety, comfort to and there was 1 other 1 that I'm not remembering right now. Oh, attachment. Safety comfort and attachment.

And understanding in the world that we live in right now, words do not always and actually rarely mean what that word? Correct. Case. So you had said something about being safe in the body. And I think that might be a nice place for us to start seeing a next conversation.

Case because that, like, peaked me I was like, wow, that's a huge concept that I would love to explore more of to feel safe in our own body. Because for a long time I didn't feel safe in my body because of the amounts of pain that I was having. And yeah. The length of time that I had had pain. Now it also grew to a story, it ruined all sorts of stuff, and quite honestly weirdly, I became comfortable in a story of not being safe in my body.

I became attached to that story. Oh, yes. Do you see what I'm saying? Yes. And yet I'd say, I wanna feel good in my body, but I was so highly attached.

To that story, and then you wanna continue to repeat that story. Yeah. Like silver... And it was, like pain. I I became attached to a story and comfortable in the story of pain.

I started when I was 6, that culminated to multi day headaches by the time I was 50 like bad bad headaches. Like, the worst I'd ever had which is then when I had to stop and ask the question, you, part of my french by, like, what the fuck is going on here. Like, wow. And what happened was I had to ask some really important questions, but to also ask for some help because I was below my 50 percent. I needed help.

Yep. Yep. And it's okay to ask for that help too. But it was... I would say it was no without a doubt.

It was stopping looking, observing, becoming aware honest, and that's what takes your power back. So sometimes you have to experience, those situations for you to realize that you have given your power up, whether you knew it or didn't know it subconsciously it just happened over time. Yep. So we will explore this more. I'd say in our next talk.

We can listen to this, like, last few and and pick it up. Than when we talk again. I will wanna share the 1 thing where you sit how we get our power back. Very small example, but very concrete and useful, I think. So I have my eyelids.

Like I said, just like itchy. Mh. Now the old me would have gone down, like, almost like a wormhole with that. Which would have been a dis empowering, like, oh, my gosh. This hurts it would have been a whole story around it, but Oddly, I would have found comfort in the dis discomfort of it.

I... But it wasn't comfort in it. I was actually mixing up the word comfort the concept comfort, I guess, I was becoming attached, that would have been attached to it. And to the attention you get, you have something wrong physically. I think there was loads of attachments in it.

So what I did yesterday was I literally just observed it. I became aware of it. Like, This is so super annoying And I was like, 000 annoying. Oh, and what I realized just through, like, sitting with it and then asking some questions to is that I've been having things have irritated me and annoyed me in my life and rather than just acknowledging. And I don't mean, like, right now, I mean, like, for a long time in life.

Anything that would come up that would irritate or annoy me, like, rather than really just seeing that and asking about it I just distorted it in my body. Yep. And now it's coming out. It's like, it's not like there's tons of stuff around me irritating and annoying me in my life right now. What's coming out is, hey.

These old habits? Yeah. We're bringing them to a surface, Make a different choice. Now you're more consciously aware aware. Yep.

Yep. But it was a challenge. Mh. To stay in an empowered place with it. And I had a few moments yesterday where I fell out of empowerment with it and what I then called kinda an into victim.

Like, oh my god, And literally, like my mind, I I needed to get clear in my mind changed my mindset because I was just spiraling down with it. It's... Very funny now. But yesterday it was quite challenging. Yeah because it was so uncomfortable because the physical...

To feel safe in our body even when we don't feel healthy if you will. And it's not that I felt unhealthy yesterday, but I would say with the things that were going on. I felt more unhealthy than healthy yesterday, which means I also felt more unsafe, say than safe in my body. But But by the time I tuned in and did some stuff. It turned out to be a really great day to learn learn like, how to...

Embrace what's right here and be empowered even if it's not perfect. Again, does that make sense? It does. It does. Yeah.

A lot of a lot of people have a hard time letting their mind even go to those. Yeah. Until those lengths of thinking, processing. They get shut off with the story. Yeah.

And that attachment, they get shut off right there. So this is gonna be very powerful for a lot of people to kind of think outside the box. They talk about on your job or this, Think outside the box. The people have no idea what that really means. I was told that long time ago.

Let's going. Well we'll think outside the box. I don't know what you mean but I thinking don't outside the box. Like, I honestly thinking outside of the box is a little bit like I said at that organization before. You kinda kinda pissed yourself off a little bit.

Yeah. I kinda pissed myself off yesterday. Yep. When I started thinking it through. And and it's weird, here's what's really weird and funny about it.

Is I wanted to just go on with my day as usual. And when I started really paying attention to what was going on with my eyes and everything else, I realized I can't. I mean, I can, but I no. If I really want to address this physical thing that's really, really talking to you right now. I had to to ask questions and go in a different direction than I wanted to.

I basically pissed myself off. I wasn't like minded with myself If I wasn't in consensus with my own story at that moment. It was really wild. Yeah. And the simplest thing, Kim, I I will close it on this is that finally last night all day this went on and all day, I a tip tote around the edge of this.

And knew something was going on, but I wasn't diving into it. I just tip down around the edge engine and asking questions and stopping this, and 1 thing I will do is on just let myself go and rest sometimes, which was more like meditation than rest. Yep. In the past it would have been sleep, check out leaks. Yes.

This time it was more just going into a minute space, like, I'll what's going on here. But anyway, the point is it took me till about 07:00 at night to do yen yoga, which finally balanced. My buy. That's about 12 hours. I'd like to Blow yourself up.

Right? I was gonna say I would like us to explore tips. Tools, talks, resources that help people do any of that faster if possible. And it is just because 12 hours was a very long time of beating myself up. Where I probably...

If when we practice you had to get to the point too where you were literally felt defeated. Like, pretty much like, okay. If I don't do something right now. Like, Yeah. I am just gonna lose my shit.

Like, I'm... My mind... I just was having a hard time. I why do we do that as humans? You glad do we literally push ourselves to the break pork before we finally say, oh, fine.

I will let go, and you're like, because again, and this is a great wrap up, and we'll start with it this next time is that I think we have been so trained into an extreme. It's either all or nothing. We either use our left brain or our right brain, and we have forgotten... We are literally both are left and our right. We are everything and nothing.

We are that integrated hold. The 1 harmonic holes is what we call it. Right? Yep. And and it's, like, we have that 52 percent is our god.

Given right it's right here, caught not bad given call whatever you want. Yeah. Don't care. It's in us. And it's like we will have a done everything but that.

That's what 12 hours a beat myself up was just to come back around, like, I could that morning done Yen yoga for about an hour to 2 hours. And I probably would have been perfectly fine the rest of my day instead. Wow. Yep. And and said, let me just sit with it.

So just stop briefly at times and ask, ask ask ask ask. If you don't ask, your. And you're asking yourself in a way right now? We're saying you ask yourself. Like I.

So, what could I do right now? To made myself to to feel your most of the time you ask yourself. Every once a while, if you were not getting the message to yourself. When I say message, that means sometimes you just hear sometimes you just get a feeling. Sometimes you were literally looking at, say a product, say them I'm in the fridge.

I keep going in the fridge for whatever reason I keep looking at lemon lemon lemon. Lemon juice. I'm like, oh, like, I don't out lemon juice, your physical buy is literally same. You need lemon juice for this issue. So you have to pay attention to what you are literally being guided.

You're asking the question, but you may not always hear it. But your energy vibration is going to bring you to your answers. If that means that you need to also sudden you feel like I got a stretch. Pay attention. Your body's also naturally stretching.

Go with it and see exactly. The more... Where... This be the first practice. Just practice asking.

Yep. Bringing it to mind. We... It... It's almost like we're in preschool with it right now.

Yeah. And we will articulate and work our way, practice our way towards becoming, you know, like Phds in this. But we don't... It's... Again, that extreme mind is, like, if I'm not a Phd, why would I ask questions?

Yeah. Because they're really powerful. And when we learn this very simple tool we get so much information though. Yep. So yeah Wow.

Yep. Ask. Beautiful. Okay? Yes.

Got anything else to share? I mean, I know you do, but right now today. They'll we're good. Yeah. I just get in and head, make a list of the tools, start making my list of the tools and like gosh, shit.

I'm like So. Yeah. Yeah. Alright. I like that.